"Spectroscope" 'I can't control the thoughts of it anymore… I've lost everything and everyone I ever concerned my self with. The truth of the matter is I have no heart. I'm a coldhearted monster that has no thought, self-control, or even the smallest amount of emotion. For years I only thought I was a normal average-Joe that lived, breathed, and felt. I was wrong. The wishes, hopes, and dreams of foolish youth can drive them one day to the brink of insanity. I have to say that I've crossed that line and back with the mad insanity lingering in my cranium. I do not doubt who and what I am. The looks, opinions, and even emotions people show toward me prove it. I can hear their thoughts without even looking at their objecting expression. I do not blame them. They're exhilarated by my guise actually, I fear myself as well. You could say that when you passed me on the sidewalk you psyche would say steer clear of this abnormal freak. I see it everyday. Ever since the human experiments, the misconfiguring of my body, the pain of the Jenova injections, which led to my complete metamorphosis from being a monster on the inside to actually showing my true self. When I first glimpsed at my abnormal self I was in complete and utter denial. I had lost it, my humanity. Truth is, I suppose that would be a fallacy I had never had a soul to begin with. I'm dead, while staying on this planet. Dead without a spirit, conscious, or hope of retrieving one; it's just as well. Happiness was not meant for monsters.' Vincent dwelled in his dark thoughts about his-self once again.
He had not realized that someone was behind him staring at his opaque figure in the shadows. He did not turn from his current position. He merely closed his ruby eyes and opened them a second later in lost thought. The window, which he had gazed through for countless hours had, gave him the view of the magnificent sunset to the predeceasing thunderstorm towering over the landscape. The pitch-sky shown no trace of the tiny diamonds that usually held in its wide embrace. Vincent felt the same as the night. Dark, cold, emotionless…
"Vincent…?" A voice said behind him.
Vincent noted the feminine voice only to be the teenage member from the long ago dismembered ragtag organization known as AVALANCHE. He hadn't thought of his allies in quite sometime. Come to think of it, he hadn't thought about anything lately.
"Vincent…? Is it you?" The voice drifted to him in soft mellow tones, as if from the voice of a docent angel from the glorified heavens above. She was not meant to be in his demonic reprieve. Why in God's name was she here? Had she lost her way? Or was it that she actually to come to see the soulless demon she had met when crisis had poured onto the land?
"Yuffie, why are you here?" He asked without a fleck of emotion in his voice.
"To see you. You know, it's been a year and a half, it seems as if you had vanished off of the planet. Everyone was concerned about your sudden departure. You didn't even say good-bye to any of us. " Yuffie walked courageously behind the stoic man.
"I found no reason to." He kept his gaze toward the window's dark view.
"No reason?! Vincent, what in creation are you saying? That none of us would care if one our friends just left without a word so much as a good-bye? Is that the case?" Yuffie turned him to meet her stormy gaze. Lightning could be seen flashing in the sapphire orbs of her testimonial gaze of discontentment.
He gazed at them in light thought and looked to the dilapidated mansion floor sadly.
"I don't have to say anything to anyone about my life, whereabouts, or even my prowess on my life. It's mine and no one else's; you should not concern yourself with other people's lives. Worry with your own, you'll go far in life if you do." He said with disdain in his voice.
"You're pitying yourself Vinnie. Don't! I'm tired of hearing about your monstrosities, sins, or petty ideas on why life sucks. I don't want to hear it. I actually came to say hello and catch up on old times, but here's to say that you have company at the moment. Your useless self-guilt! Vinny, it will get you nowhere. And I'll damn myself if I don't tell you that. You have some much to offer the world…why must you give it up for the thought of being a demon, in which you're not? Why?" Yuffie had started to shake him with her anger and her sadness for this man.
"You know nothing!" He hissed to her, eyes showing a fiery anger she had seen many times when around him. "You're just a child who thinks of the world a fair and just. Open your beautiful blue eyes Yuffie Kisaragi, and see that appearances are truly deceiving!" Vincent pulled from her grasp and turned from her.
"Many are right about you! You care nothing for no one, most of all yourself! I was wrong to think you had emotions. Damn me for believing that you were my friend. I can now see that you don't even care. I'll leave you to your thoughts on your sad little life. But, for what it's worth I actually considered you human and a friend! I actually defended you from peoples' interpretations of you. I now know that Cloud and Tifa were right I couldn't break that icy barrier inside you! You have to do that on your own. And even after I leave, I'll always consider you a friend, even though you think nothing more of me than a brat that steals materia and thinks only for herself. I believe I'm actually more than that. I believe I have friends who care and that fills the gap of my unhappiness. You should really think on that…" She trailed off sliding a tear from her right eye.
Vincent only stared lifelessly at the floor as she turned to make her exit. He looked up as her back face him her figure becoming smaller and smaller as she descended from him. It finally clicked somewhere deep inside the icy barriers of his distorted body. The ice melted from inside. He felt the life he had once possessed before his nightmare began and felt content as the door shut in front of him. He would lose her… His friend… He actually had someone who cared enough to show him something other than a life he had in the darkness of despair.
He mechanically reached for the closed door and ran after the retreating figure that had begun to proceed into the stormy night. Her salty tears mixed with the rains. Her sobs were cancelled out by the pouring rain's own tears. She stumbled in the mud not even attempting to keep her balance. She had not even noticed the connection of flesh against cold metal. She only felt the taste of resentment toward herself. How could she not have been honest? That it was more than what she had said? Why? Why could she not sum up the courage and be honest with him? Why that was the only one who had not given up the search for him when the rest had? Why she had spent over a year traveling from one place to another aimlessly searching…searching for him. Now she had and coward out on her main objective. She had lost her chance and now she must live the rest of her life and face that mind-piercing truth. She felt something cold on her stomach and looked the object. It gleamed a golden-bronze color when the lightning hit it. It was shaped in the figure of an arm and claw. She turned to meet mako-red eyes that stared intently at her.
"Vincent! I'm sorry if I upset you, I'll leave you alone from now on. I promise not to annoy you ever again." Yuffie looked sadly at him.
"You have not upset me and you most certainly do not annoy me. Please stay here for a while. I would like to have your company." Vincent smiled shortly at her.
"What? You...you mean you want me to stay???" Yuffie questioned.
"Yes, I would like to see you could stand a monster like me."
"Vinny, you're not a monster!"
Vincent turned from her questioning eyes; he couldn't bear the sadness in them. He closed his own eyes and began to speak again.
"So, you're not hindered by my changing into Chaos? What about the others? Yuffie, I scare people. I've even seen you have the look of fear in those pristine-blue eyes of yours. Please don't say I'm not." He looked down to the frozen earth.
"If you were a monster, then I wouldn't waste my time on you…Vinnie…I…nevermind." Yuffie looked away in stupidity.
Vincent turned around to face her again. Pulling her chin up forcing her to look at him he saw he tear-streaked face. His heart raced in his chest as she looked up at him with her emotion-filled eyes. Those eyes. How they captivated him so, enough to drive him to the brink of insanity.
He decided to break the connection of silence between them before another moment of wordless communication passed them by forever lost in time.
"Yuffie, what were proposing to say before you so abruptly cut off your sentence?" Vincent stared at her with curiosity. "It…it was nothing." She stammered as she tried to look at another object other than her questioning companion.
"I can tell when there are falsities when someone tries to lie. It's more than nothing I think it's something important. Yuffie please, just tell me." He whispered in her ear.
She stared into his ruby gaze with her own tear-stained eyes. She had slipped when she almost told him why she was there in the first place and now it was time to come clean and be frank with the man she sought.
"I…I just…oh God Vinnie! I came here to see you that much is true…" She hesitated for a moment. "But…it was more than just out of friendship and now you see that I have to go because you'll be disgusted by my true ambitions." She gazed at the soaked ground waiting for him to let go and leave her alone in the pouring rain.
Vincent pulled her toward him and stroked her tangled hair. His own tears mixed with the rain. He couldn't believe that she came to see him and more out of just pity or friendship. How could she see the man behind the monster that he hid so well? How could she replace his ice fortress of frozen emotion that created by his first love? Now that he thought of it, Lucrecia was just a memory lost in the past that he didn't need to hold on to a moment longer. And for once in his screwed up life Vincent Valentine actually smiled.
"Yuffie, I want you to promise me something…" Vincent kissed her forehead softly.
"Anything Vinnie."
Vincent hesitated for a moment and held her tighter. Close enough for her to hear his heartbeat inside his chest. "Will you stay with me? I mean, forever?"
"Vinnie, I never thought you'd ask me that question. Yes, I would more than love to please don't leave me." She whispered.
"Never, and that I vow to you for eternity. Come, we must get inside, it seems the rain will not let up anytime soon and I will not have you catching pneumonia." He said carrying her to the abandoned mansion.
He quietly closed the door behind him and carried her to the massive fireplace. She shuddered under his hold as he set her on the warmed floor. He left her for a brief moment and returned with a towel and blanket. He wrapped the towel on her soaked head and pulled the soft blanket around her.
"This should keep you from getting sick. " He whispered sitting next to her.
"Aren't you cold?" Yuffie asked concerned.
"Yuffie, I'm not human anymore, I don't get sick. Don't worry over me alright?"
"Alright." She yawned for a moment and looked at him again.
He stared at her intently with his crimson gaze, truth be told could set her skin on fire, not that action was bad or anything. He moved closer to her and placed claw around her covered waist, it shimmered in the firelight. He lightly graced her cheek with his human hand. She smiled at him with her trademark smile and mouthed, "I love you" to him. He whispered the same to her and lightly traced her soft lips with his index finger. He pulled her to him and was merely centimeters away from her face. They moved closer until they met and kissed each other. The kiss was light at first then developed into a stronger more passionate kiss. A few minutes later the couple broke away and stared at each other amazed. She had never been kissed like that before in her entire life and he finally realized she was the "one". Vincent always felt a pang in his chest around her, even when they first met in the Shinra mansion when Cloud and Tifa woke him from his slumber. He was always cautious around her for the fear of letting his emotions take control of him again and now they were in total command, not that is was a negative thing. She smiled at him again and all thoughts of guilt, hurt, and depression melted from him. He now understood that it was meant for him to wait if he didn't, he never would have met Yuffie.
God forbid.
"Yuffie." Vincent began as he pulled her closer to him in a warm embrace.
"Yes Vincent, what is it?" She began to look concerned again.
"Will you marry me?" He looked at her serious.
Yuffie smiled truly and kissed him lightly on the cheek. "Of course! I have waited for that question since I met you but always thought it would never be asked."
"I never thought that you would accept it from someone like me. I love you."
"I love you too." She held onto him tighter.
The couple held each other in a warm embrace talking of the future and realizing that it was meant to be. Light and Darkness mixing together and becoming something more than just a fable, Fate had brought them together and now they would never separated no matter the cost…
(I believe you know the ending….) The lovers were fated together for eternity in life and death and they were finally happy.
*~ The End. ~* Author's note: A Spectroscope is a scientific device that lets you see different colors in a light spectrum thingy. Anyway, I just like the name for this one-shot fic. Sorry for the way it turned out if no on likes it. I like how it turned out. I might make a sequel I'm not for certain, the ending was good enough I suppose… Anyhoo, I hope you enjoyed it! ^_*